Cedar Falls. I can't believe how much my life has changed in the 5 years of living there. That town is my home now. Yes, Des Moines is my home as well but only because that is where my family lives. Saying good-bye to the town where I became a woman was one of the hardest parts about leaving, Cheesy right? But it's true, for awhile I was someone I didn't want to be but when leaving Cedar Falls I was proud of who I'd become and I think that has everything to do with my experiences there. I think what saddens me the most is that Cedar Falls will most likely not be the same place when I return, my favorite places will have new people around and the old ones might have left. Nonetheless I'll see you later CF, I'm going to accept the fact that you'll be different because I'll be different too.
I've had a great last week with my friends in Des Moines. With Heather on our day of pranks in the rain, with the Holmes sisters, Justin and Jon at Grey's Lake, Courtney, Shannan, and all the others who attended my good-bye party. Jorden, you're awesome for driving down all the way from Ames :) I'm going to miss my family very much but I honestly think this is harder on them than it is for me. I'm sad that I won't meet my soon-to-be-born niece but she is a lucky duck already with two amazing parents, grandparents, and an older sister and brother who are both adorable and adoring.
I'm excited for Conner to come visit me here in Des Moines, we're going out downtown tonight and then to Adventureland tomorrow. I'm going to try my best to enjoy our last days together without weeping the whole time because saying good-bye to Conner is the hardest part about leaving. We both knew from the beginning of our relationship of my wish to become a Peace Corps volunteer and since then he has been been one of the most supportive people of my decision. I'm not sure what our future together will be, it's possible there won't be one, but I've had an amazing year and half with him, yes of course there have been downs but we always pulled through them. We'll go our separate ways and if we end up not being together than it just wasn't meant to be but no matter what Conner is an amazing young man who I'm proud of and I hope we can stay in contact throughout my 27 month adventure!
I've pretty much done all my packing now, thankfully I'm just under my 100 lb limit! I'm going to indulge in my favorite things these last couple days and hopefully stay relaxed!
The next time you read this blog I'll be in Peru, wish me luck :)
:) <3
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